There’s been a really great response to the pictures and posts around one of my more recent posts on Alex Campbell Transformation, What Happens Outside the Comfort Zone? The support has been immense and I really do appreciate it. At the same time, I’ve been thinking about my core beliefs about myself with regards to my weight challenges over the years.
It still makes me feel sad when I think about the different types of responses I have received in my life, simply based on how I look! After all, I’ve always been me no matter what the scale says and what size my jeans are. I was never in denial about my weight and how unhealthy it was, but I have spent most of the past 20-something years looking for weight-loss solutions or actually being on diet. No matter how I look, I’ve always been aware of my unhealthy relationship with food. As a person in long-term recovery, I am well aware of what addiction’s all about. And it’s not simply about overindulging, having no willpower, being unaware of my habits and blissfully ignoring the consequences of addictive behaviour patterns
It’s about the inability to stop eating once the binge has started. It’s about a lack of control. It’s about using food as a reward or an escape. It’s about blame and justification. It’s about the guilt and shame that results from a binge. It’s about negative core beliefs and the unhealthy thoughts, words, actions and behaviours that are a result of these thoughts and ideas, and the pattern goes on. It’s not about lacking self control, it’s about having a distorted view of self.
Coaching has been the missing piece in my nutrition and fitness puzzle. Because weight-loss needs to be supported by a programme or process that works on changing thoughts and ideas, building self-esteem and -efficacy, about understanding nutrition and creating strong, sustaiable habits. It’s not simply about shedding the kilos, it’s about reinventing the way I think about those kilograms and centimetres, and myself. In the coaching process I have learned to see myself as worthy of fitness, health and wellness. It’s about believing I deserve to be in shape, because it’s self-loving.
And I have fully accepted this time that it’s also about HARD WORK! There is no miracle pill, no perfect diet, no revolutionary eating plan. It’s about consistency, patience, routine and practice. It’s really no different to my recovery from substance abuse. It doesn’t happen overnight just because I am ready for it. It’s about learning tools and skills, habits and behaviours that are supportive of health and well-being. And saying that comes with a big dollop of humility, because as a coach I know this…I just needed someone else to coach me and work as an accountability partner in this journey.
I’m practising, I’m being consistent, I’m showing up and doing the work. Not talking about doing, but actually doing. And instead of giving up when there are setbacks such as a little weight gain, plateaus and days of hunger, I have relied on myself and reached out to my coach. And There are days that are extremely trying (the ones when I want to jump into a party-pack of Doritos) and those when I feel like this is the simplest thing imaginable.
And I am learning to love myself a little more every day. Not just because of the way my body is starting to look, but also because I am being honest, courageous, open and patient. I have begun to feel as though I deserve to look and feel great, be healthy and fit, and live authentically and congruently in my personal power. And for that I am extremely grateful.
This TedTalk by Brene Brown on “The Power of Vulnerability” has changed my core beliefs about myself and learn to love myself in an authentic, empowered way.